LooseCanon

Today is Saturday and I am off work….Came, —- that close to hooking up off one of my dating sites.

Man she was hot too…..Forty five, (robbin the craddle for me) petite.

Her profile pic she’s layin on a bed with some kind of skimpy night gown showing most of her pear shaped mouth fulls, and the night gown ridin up exposing the most beautiful sculptured shanks goin.

Life would be so much easier if I’d learn to masturbate….I used to know how…

When I was eight I fell in love for the first time and after several years of…..amazingly similar emotions that I feel today, at age eleven I discovered masturbation….

It’s fine, until you’ve had the ‘real deal’. After that…. it’s not fine…

It’s a house of cards, a cheat, a let down…

So if anybody wants to know what it’s like to be horny all the time just ask….

If some medical research outfit is looking for ‘horny all the time’ subjects to do clinical studies on…. (free drugs included)….I am your huckleberry.

Honestly, at my age bein horny all the time keeps a man alive…..

All that testosterone building up down there must like,leak into the blood stream affecting ones entire body and state of mind…

I think it’s some kind of natural fountain of youth deal…

Used to have ‘wet dreams’ which are another form of cheat, but one where you can honestly say, ….’It wasn’t me’…. when you wake up…

Those days are gone too…I don’t dream at all anymore cuz by the time I go to sleep I’m too exhausted to dream….Being horny all the time really takes it out of ya…..

Anyway, being a relatively reflexive personality, I try to use my situation as a positive vehicle in my every day life…………”What”?…………”Have I tried what”?…….

No I don’t ‘do’ mail boxes, vacuum cleaners, or garbage cans!….

Jesus!….What kind of guy do you take me for?…..

What I mean is, I’ve tried to take it to another level.

Like how I address the general public when at work…It’s a kind of spiritual exploration for me…

It’s living in the moment and trying to make a point to ‘love’ in that moment weather it’s communicating with another person, or doing a routine job function…

Taking an extra step to lovingly finish up at work instead of just getting it done.

Or catching myself being…you know, (if you’ve read my stuff)….myself…

Adjusting my attitude to a more diversive acceptance of others…

The more I practice this sort of ‘Zen’ approach to daily living the more I realize a definite division in my natural makeup as a person….

I am a Doctor Jeckel, Mr. Hide….

A candidate for saint hood, and the devils advocate all rolled up in one.

Put through a blender..Spit out the end, landing on the kitchen floor, cuz somebody forgot to put a decent rubber washer on the business end of the contraption…

Why am I bothering tellin you this?…..

What the hell do you care?….Why would you even want to continue read this boring crap about me ranting on and on about ME?….

What kind of purely self centered, self promoting, botheration, has the nerve to post this stuff for the world to see?

And why are you still reading?……Don’t you have a blog to go write or something?

….Now, that right there……….That’s the ‘dark side’ of LooseCanon….

I wanted to post this in hopes others that read it would maybe take time to give pause…

Just for a moment.

Contemplate,… the yin, yang, positive, negative mixing of energies that energizes every aspect of the universe, and plays such a vital part of our lives….

I for one have found it to be a tool, a reminder, that every waking moment of our lives, we have a choice…